Beauty & Chaos (ePub)

When I started writing this book, I wasn't sure if I would live long enough to finish it. My drug addiction was so unmanageably bad, I truly believed that I was doomed to fail. I had so many secrets, hidden thoughts, and feelings that I felt it was very important for me to document my life in such a way that it would help explain some things to my family that I have kept in the dark, to shed some light as to who I was as a person. Because I truly felt like I was running out of time and I didn't know what else to do but to write somewhat of a love letter/goodbye letter to my friends and family.

Then as my sobriety became stronger, I decided to leave everything as it was but add lessons that I have learned along the way. Now, much of this book has become mostly what I've learned before and during my sobriety with the intention of sharing my experiences for the reader to relate to on an emotional level, to inspire everyone and anyone searching for a deeper understanding of life and spiritual wisdom. I believe I am only scratching the surface of what is possible. But I know I'm on to something good. This is the type of good that should be shared with anyone who is seeking it. I wouldn't be doing the universe any favors by keeping this information all to myself.

This is a spiritual book about life-my life, your life, and all life. From the smallest life-forms to the largest. This is a book about the past, the present, and the possible future. I believe all people have unique qualities that make them individuals. I also believe, on a fundamental level, that all people are the same. If I can understand my life, I can understand all life. Everything we say and do is a reflection of how we see ourselves and how we see the world. We are living in a modern society where all the information of the world is at our fingertips, good and bad. As our intelligence increases, the likelihood of depression increases with it. Unless you know how to counter it. How much is a quiet, peaceful mind worth to you?

This book combines mind, body, spirit, psychology, religion, and science all in one. Mainly because they are all connected and we can't fully comprehend the full complex simplicity of life if we leave one of them out.